BREAST (do I have one??)

I was wake up late this morning. Today I felt tired and bored. I decided to go to beauty house to have body massage. Here in Jakarta, you pay 60.000 rupiah or similar with 6 dollars to have a massage in nearest beauty house.

So I walked up lazily to that place. Luckily there were not many people waiting. It's because in the middle of months when salary people now think how to spend their money and survive until the end of month. For me who unemployed person, just once I wanna feel pampered.

Then I took off all my cloth and use a piece of batik to hide the nude. Do I felt embarrassed with my body? Yes, I did. I don't have breast. I was born without "beautiful- full breast". My breast is a very tiny one, as you knew it was a breast because there is a nipple in the center. Without the nipple you may think that it is a stomach or just a wall.

Some people are shy when they want to talk about breast. How about you?
Breast is like a chicken fillet with the censoring cable or Breast is a bunch of meat with a cherry in the middle.

I have a friend who have big tits (breast). She hided her breast with her hand.
She is not happy with it and reduce the size. And I told her how I love to have her bra size. She was laughing. She said it is good to have a big tits, but there are also some weakness. She said "man tend to look at my tits before looking directly to my face or eyes, if I wear a tight shirt woman think that I show off, men also think I don't have brain only breast. It's really annoying."
I was so surprised to hearing that. As me always imagine how nice to have big tits, even I wear a chicken fillet bra to make my tits "existed". Moreover, I dream to have a breast plastic surgery that could stand out my performance. What a pity of me!!!

I saw Mariah Carey's video clip a few days ago. She looks gorgeous and so sexy. But for me she changed a lot. I used to adored her. Beside her amazing voices, she has a friendly and innocent look. However, I don't like her now. After she had a plastic surgery, her video clip showing mostly her body not her soul. She show off her breast as if it is a piece of marketable meat. OK....you may not agree with my comments (especially men..he..hheee), but see her new song "touch my body". It's a craps. It doesn't show her beautiful voice, it's like a condom ads.

Back to my breast. Do I have one? Yes I have. Though I was small I should be lucky there still are. My family have a breast cancer history. Maybe I have to lose them once, I don't know. I should be grateful for what I got, don't you think so? For now I am not fancy to have plastic surgery because it may change myself. I become the "new" Mariah Carey.

KARTINI UPDATES

For whom who are not knowing who is Kartini is, let me quote the definision from wikipedia.

"Raden Ajeng (Adjeng) Kartini was a prominent Javanese and an Indonesian national heroine. Kartini is known as a pioneer in the area of women's rights for native Indonesians".
(see: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kartini for more info)

Reading these piece of information from the Wikipedia, suddenly I felt so ashamed for myself. Look at Kartini, she could only study until 12 years old, she has lots of restriction to develop herself, her father and the social condition prevailing her to continue her dream. As compare with me, I was born in a middle class family. My parents supported my study. Even I don't have a high dream, there is always a possibility that I could achieve what I want. But I was cheased by my dream.

What Kartini will become if she has my 23 years formal education, including all the English course and other courses that I had.
What will Kartini do when she has the ability to write a blog and have instant reply as soon as possible.
What will Kartini think if she could easily get a divorce paper as soon as you have good lawyer?
and another what will,....what will.....

In this era when woman could sounds their independence, their passion and effort. Women should also think about other women problem. Passionately aware what they could do to improve either education or economic for other women. But what I do now are only contribute how to talk to female celebrities married, how lack knowledge of other female co-worker, or gossiping thing that really not important. What an ashame conduct. Don't you think so?

What did I do to make Indonesian women have an equally chances, benefits, contribution in their life. Why is my heart not moving to hear a lot of woman strugling to find their life free from economic or social burden.

I get to have an action. So starting now I am making an action. I let you know soon what my action is.