AM I OBSESSED TO LOOK "WHITER"?

I read an article in the newspaper about how some "Indonesians" women become obsessed to have white skin. Although I always denied it but I know deep down in my heart I had that obsession too. Of course the white skin is not means absolute white like the western women, it's a clearer white. Brighter one.

I was born with a dark brown skin, sawo matang, they said. I thought it is a darker than sawo matang, it's sawo busuk..he..he.....However at that time when most of girls are thinking how to look prettier, I was too busy to play basketball..that made my skin even darker. I didn't even get any sun cream lotion.... waaaaaa...Then a few years later when some girls become women and thought about using the make up, at that time I just realize that I was not only have a dark skin, I had a mosquito's bite scar in all my skin...gee..I knew I always three step behind all the girls.

When did it start? It started with a kiss... ups thats tdrama title.
It starts when I had more time for myself. Recently after quiting from a job, I have more time to see the real me. I realize not only a dark skin I had, I also have "kusam" skin,. I changed my look with the following steps:


1. I set my dream, the one slogan cream

not only look whiter, but also radiant and flawlessly looking.

2. I started by some whitening cream product. First Melanin, it's a suncream from the medical side. It says the cream will protect your skin everyday. It probably did, but how come my skin are not whiter.....

after 4 weeks.....I decided to go to "the salon" to try their whitening cream products. The sales lady advise me to but two creams, the sun cream and the night cream. She said they are not only to make my skin whiter, but also to reduce the wrinkles (ups, now she mentioned, I felt so old). I tried for several weeks. Didn't like it. The suncream was smelly and sticky. It didn't match with my powder. The night cream was OK, but sometime forgot to use it.

6 weeks after using the salon cream i stoped. What would I say? I become a victim of advertisement. Ponds use a middle age woman to promote their new product. the whitening, anti wrinkles and any magic slogan. I like some others people love an instant thing. Yeah, why you have to buy three cream if you can buy one with tree benefit. Then I bought pond's complete care. the price is more expensive than the previous one. Try it for several weeks. It is not sticky. It absorbed well on my skin and didn't make my face blink with the oily look. Now that I thought I am going to settle my problems. then the agne come out. Ups...god, my free acnes face became a soil of acnes forest.

At the end, I guess I had to accept the reality that my skin is the way it is. Can't be whiter, a bit lighter perhaps. I am still trying to find the right cream..someday...I knew I could find the one. :)